Jealousy is a part of me.

yesterday I went over to My so-called Mr. Right once upon a time. The last time we met was not so long ago, which was last week. He asked me to kiss him and I was strong enough to say "NO." I had no desire to get back with him. Until yesterday, when he fixed my computer and this pretty blonde chic comes and he's making plans with her in front of me. In front of me! First of all, why am I feeling so jealous? I'm not supposed to have feelings like this. It's been awhile since we have been together and I thought I was over him. He even asked me if I thought of the proposal from last time, the kiss. I changed the subject. He asked me if I was looking for a relationship, I said firmly again - "NO." I'm not going to try to look into it. I have someone else.

It just seems as if I'm never satisfied. At one point, I thought I had it all figured out. I did a complete 360• I have no desire for men. Well they are pleasing to look at, particularly this one guy I work with whom I've had a crush forever with from when I first started, but that's all. The attraction stops there. With woman, I feel so different. I'm attracted to "L" and I want to be with her mind, body and soul. That's when it comes to My so-called Mr. Right, when a kiss is not actually necessary. I can pass. With "L", I want her so badly that I can't pass up a kiss at all.

I Kissed A Girl

Jenny came over and told me about Brad
He's such a hairy behemoth she said
And dumb as a box of hammers
But he's such a handsome guy
And I opened up and I told her about Larry
And yesterday how he asked me to marry
I'm not giving him an answer yet
I think I can do better
CHORUS:
So we laughed, compared notes
We had a drink, we had a smoke
She took off her overcoat
I kissed a girl
I kissed a girl
So she called home to say she'd be late
He said, he worried but now he'd feel safe
I'm glad you're with your girlfriend,
Tell her "Hi" for me
then I looked at you, you had guilt in your eyes
But it only lasted a little while
And then I felt your hand above my knee
CHORUS:
And we laughed at the world
They can have their diamonds
And we'll have our pearls
I kissed a girl
I kissed a girl
I kissed a girl, her lips were sweet
She was just like kissing me
I kissed a girl, won't change the world
But I'm so glad
I kissed a girl
And we laughed at the world
They can have their diamonds
And we'll have our pearls
I kissed a girl (for the first time)
I kissed a girl (and I may do it again)
I kissed a girl
I kissed a girl
I kissed a girl, her lips were sweet
She was just like kissing me (but better)
I kissed a girl
I kissed a girl, won't change the world
But I'm so glad
I kissed a girl (for the first time)
I kissed a girl (won't be the last time)
I kissed a girl
I kissed a girl