Emptiness

Everyday I read your horoscope since I have no contact whatsoever with you. Just to make it seem like I know exactly what is actually going on in your life -even though I really don't. I just miss you so much and it's like insane that I have to go over this lack of having your love in my life. I miss going out there to visit you in the city, because you are the real and only reason for my driving out 40 mins at speeds of 80 miles an hour to see you. You are the only reason I had bought an I-pass for, you are the only reason I was willing to drive right after work and go to school near you, which is 8 mins driving distance away from your place. Here I am, awake once again and I still can't break you away from my mind. I've tried to have some fun and steer clear of any thoughts of you, but it doesn't work. If only I didn't love you as much as the way I do, I would be able to get over you. But I have a one track mind. It’s like the card that I gave you: There are many fishes in the sea, but you are the only fish that I want. I miss you so much, where are you? Are you thinking of me? Or have you found someone else. Is she taking up your time? Do you wish I was there right next to you and in your arms? Cuz I wish I had your love. I wish I knew it all. All I am aware of is that I'm an outsider in your world.