Incoherent

I try to find reasons to hate you so that I can get over you. Except that I'm so in love with you - in order to let you have your happiness, I need to let you go...even though it destroys my gratification. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind had a great device to help people who where crazy in love to stop thinking about them. I would want to do that and release this torture of not having you in my life at this moment. But at the same time I don't regret having had your love. For once in my life you brought sweet bliss into existence. That's why it's so hard for me to let you go. No one will compare to you - like you said, "No one will ever love you like I do." In my eyes, you are prince charming and you sure did treat me like your princess. I really adore what a genuine guy you have been to me. Something I recalled from our last conversation was, “I will bounce back, but it will take time." Do you think I could do the same? You also told me to take this time to find out what's out there and you corrected yourself, "Not who's out there, just what's out there - find myself." So you gave me the impression that maybe right now it's not the time for us but later down the road when we both grow up, perhaps we will return back into one another’s arms. I heard clearly from you that there are possibilities. For us? I guess I can't rule you and me out, but I also have to get high - on life.